cycles - Raine Dawn Valentine

The last time I wrote, I had a cast on my right wrist.

I got it taken off on Thursday September 26, 2019. It was on for 5 weeks. My wrist has healed so well. When the cast first came off it was stiff, but I have been doing stretches for it everyday. There’s a huge difference in the muscle structure of my hand! I am amazed how fast muscles deteriorate, and excited to see how fast they come back.

BEFORE the BREAK

AFTER the BREAK

There’s been a cycle from stiff, to stretched, to sore that has been real intense the past few weeks. This past weekend I did henna for the first time since the day I broke it! It held up really well and wasn’t sore at all afterwards. I even did some yoga modifying the down dog a little.

The 6 weeks of healing went by so fast. I feel like it was quicker because I wasn’t caught up in the thoughts of me being broken, but rather acknowledged the limitations I had and continued to process and move forward in actions towards my goals. At first my heart was really hurt by this break, and I realize now it was my heart that was asking for my attention.

Attention to self.

I broke my giving hand, one that I use everyday to give to others. Giving to others makes my heart full, however I realized I wasn’t giving to myself. I was spending so much time doing the many other things I do, which was leading to my lack of energy for self care.

The past 6 weeks have really slowed me down mentally, in order to spend time healing myself and loving myself. I was forced to pay attention to my body and what it needed from me. To allow myself to rest and relax even when there were 500 things to do! I found peace in the stillness after a while, and know I will carry this learning over into the future days.

Be easy with yourselves.

Give love to yourself first, and you will be able to carry mountains.

Everyday is a new day, and marks a new cycle to learn from.

Love the Light and the Dark

Its been a while since I’ve dedicated time to write and share… I have thought about it a lot, I just seemed to have writers block for the best few months. Creative block would be more like it…. at least that’s how it feels. It feels as though how I walk my path doesn’t always meet my expectations of how I think I should be walking my path. .

I realize that resting and not creating like I think I should doesn’t necessarily mean that I have a block that needs to be removed. I think the idea of “writers block” being something negative really limits us.

It’s all about allowing our shadows and lows to be what they are… to not try to get rid of them, but to see them… and love them. Allowing them to be what they are and learning new things about ourselves from them. When we try to get rid of our negative feelings and thoughts we are missing a huge opportunity to grow. What we really want is to be able to be content in our being at any moment… that doesn’t mean we do not experience the lows, on the contrary it means experiencing all that life has … its ups and downs while being able to be still and remain centered through it all. To know that no matter what comes, we are exactly as we are supposed to be and the universe is supporting us.

So these past few months I have been learning to love my shadows, to work with my lows, and to be easy on myself during these times. To not expect so much from myself all the time, and to be present in the times I feel like I “should” be doing something else.

Life is cyclic… things come and go… its all about how we choose to perceive these things that determine how we grow.

No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path. For today, I choose to walk my path with patience and compassion for myself wherever I am and how ever I am feeling.

How will you walk your path?

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